Saturday, December 12, 2009

Hello - It is crazy and surreal to think that a week has already passed. I am not sure what the word would be to describe this week. So much sadness with Bo's passing, so much gratitude for the kindness of stories and love showing Addi and I support and a little denial that my Bo is gone. I still find it hard to believe that he won't walk through the door, change my channel to sports center, or holler from the bed room for Addi and I to come in and watch Wow Wow Wubzy with him.
Of course my focus right now is Addi. She is doing alright. May statements of missing Daddy. And many questions of why Daddy isn't here. One conversation we had,
"Mommy, why did Daddy die"
"Daddy, had cancer and it made him real sick to where his heart stopped working."
"Why, did God want Daddy in heaven?"
"God needed Daddy to be an angel with him. You know what I think Daddy would want us to do?"
"What Mommy?"
"I think Daddy would want us to be happy, and play and just love everyone."
"You know want else I think Daddy would want us to do?"
"What Addi?" (This could be a loaded question)
"I think Daddy would want us to make sure no one else gets cancer."

From your mouth Addi to God's ear.

Love to All
Christi and Addi

15 comments:

Anonymous said...

Addi is right!!!! Thanks for always posting when I know it must have been really difficult for you to even type. Thanks for being the incredible woman that you are! I continue to read the blog daily and always will! We love you and are here for you anytime that you need us!!! We love you!!!

The Faunces

Anonymous said...

Oh Christi! From the mouth of your babe to the ears of the entire world. Put that on Addi's Cure site now. Please. What am amazing child you have!

Anonymous said...

Christi, your little girl is truly amazing-and so are you! Somehow you have it made it through this week-as incredibly hard as I am sure it has been. Stay strong and know that so many of us are still praying for and thinking of you.
My Love,
MitchyB

Anonymous said...

She's the sweetest little girl ever who must've learned it well from her parents. You're both blessed to have each other.

Mary T. said...

Christi,
Thanks for continuing to blog. We are all thinking about both of you and hearing from you every now and then keeps us all connected. I love hearing your stories of Addi. They make me smile and know how much Bo loved her and you. Her words are so open and innocent. I hope God was listening to her. Please know we are here for you.
I still struggle with losing Daddy. I know time is a great healer, we just have to allow our selves time.
We love you both so much.
Aunt Mary and Uncle Jeff

Anonymous said...

Show me an amazing child and I will show you amazing parents. Thanks so much for continuing to blog. Know that we all love Addi and you very much!

Catie Rubenstein said...

oh my god- that absolutely breaks my heart, Christi. She is amazing. And of course, she's right.
I know anniversaries of the day can be hard. Thinking of you today, on this first one after one week... I don't want anyone else to ever get cancer, either.
God, are you listening?? Addi has something to say.

Anonymous said...

You are both amazing and thanks so much for sharing. We hope to hear from you soon and remember that we love you very much. Crystal

Candace said...

thanks for sharing....we love you!
The Hams

Anonymous said...

Christi, you are a wonderful mother and that Addi is amazing! I really hope God was listening to her wise words. Thank you for continuing to share your lives with us.

Love,
Amanda Fuller

Anonymous said...

Thank You for sharing with us. You are such a wonderful person. I pray for you and your daughter. I think about your husband and my sister who are angels in heaven watching over us now. God takes the best. Take care.
love,
E L

Ken and Mystina said...

What a precious child! And at her young age so much understanding! We pray God is with you and Addi everyday holding you in His arms and loving you though the pain.

Love and Prayers,
Ken, Mrs. Ken, Micah and Olivia

Anonymous said...

Christi... you (and Addi) are not alone. Your story has power. And, you power us. I don't know if this will help, but recently a blogger I follow did this astounding fundraising project for livestrong. he is a cyclist. he is a father. he is a husband. His wife died from cancer in August. And, he wrote some beautiful pieces. All of us take a bit of your story with us when we go through each day. This is NOT to suggest you should become a fulltime fund raiser...though through Addi's Cure you have done so much. But, I thought you might find some comfort in his story. The first link is one ofthe posts about his wife's battle.
http://www.fatcyclist.com/2009/07/08/fighting-like-susan/

this is a video of a speech he gave at an awards ceremony.

http://vimeo.com/6267205

Peace.

Sarah
Chicago, IL

Candy Howard Photography said...

I love that sweet, little girl.

Anonymous said...

Addi is wise beyond her years and Keegan is lucky to have her as a best friend.

xxJean Ramsden