Sunday, July 25, 2010

Hello to All - I hope this hot summer it treating you well. It isn't doing much for my bragging rights about being cooler than Kansas. I always give my family a hard time why NC is where I call home now. The mountains, the ocean, the cooler weather...well 2 out of 3 isn't bad. I new one to add to the list is Addi's cute accent. She is so country and so her father. Some things I just cannot make up. Addi could sell ice to Eskimos. Hence why she is so rotten, she convinces me to do some of the craziest things. Just like her in Target $100 less she reminds me, "Well I am my father's daughter." Seriously is she four! I guess I have mumbled that one too many times under my breath.
Addi and I have been enjoying July. I have been at work too much and I think the change is stressing Addi out a little, so we spend the weekends here and we are getting into trouble and crashing friends houses when the house is too quite. It is amazing that we are 8 months out and I still find myself crying once a day. (Well maybe not once a day, but on days like today, it feels like once a day) Most of the time remembering something funny, but other times, just memories everywhere. Good things and I wouldn't change them for the world, but crazy memories.
A year ago today we were surprising my Mom and Dad with their anniversary and Great Papa was another year older. Oh life is precious and I am so blessed with my little girl and family and friends, but life is fleeting. We are already talking about shopping for school supplies, Addi will have one more year of pre-school and then kindergarten. I think I will be excited and proud of her if it hadn't been such a milestone Bo wanted to live to. With that I know he will be there next year with us, but will make the day a greater accomplishment for Addi, but leave a larger hole for us.
Now that you all think I am absolutely nuts tonight, I promise you we are good. Just having a night. And I wrote once that on those nights I would turn to those out there to vent to. Better an unknown voice than someone of the phone thinking that they need to run me to a psych ward. I hope everyone is well and we will see you all soon.
Love to All
Christi and Addi


Tommy Pate said...

You are much loved and believed in. Keep the faith!

Anonymous said...

We could never miss him as much as you do, but if it makes you feel better, know that even after 8 months some of us still cry too. The world was a better place with him and I hope that people realize that we have to keep going as Bo would want us to. He was kind to everyone and that light of kindness shows through in Addi. I hope everyone he touched will strive carry that light too. You and that little girl will always be my heroes.

Anonymous said...

I don't want to run you to a psych ward, but I wish you'd call for dinner so I could have given you a hug! We're free tomorrow night if you are! Amy and the boys

Anonymous said...

Christi you are doing just fine. I remember those days very vividly. Time well make them better, and they well not come as often, but you well always have those days that have very special meaning to you and Addi. And those days your hearts well be very heavy.
You are a true rock, a very strong woman and a darn good mother. Hang in there and living each day well get easier.
Aunt Marlene from Kansas

Mindy said...

You and Addi have been on such a crazy roller coaster of emotions for so long that this is ok Christi, my momma said there will be days like this:). If you need to cry-just cry it's ok. You are without a doubt one of the strongest people I know!

Rock on TAT 2010! We will make Bo proud!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Christi, you are entitled to as many nights as you need! We all feel a tremendous void, but can only imagine what you go through on a daily basis. Your friends and family will always be there for you and thinking of you and Addi.

My love,

Anonymous said...

Given everything I think you are not just perfectly sane but entitled to be less put together than you are. Life is fleeting and I am just glad to know people like your family who are such good people and have been for years. Anytime you need to "vent" you have earned it. BTW it is 100 in KS today so not sure if we aren't losing that one too! Hope to see you all again soon. Brendon