When I typed the blog entry for yesterday, I had no idea it would cause such a stir.... I got many calls/emails yesterday and today, as well as several entries into the blog. My purpose of this blog is to always be as honest as I can about how I feel and what is happening. (remember the doctor and his finger from the beginning? :) ) During my time living with this mess, I have been very lucky from the standpoint of having a great support cast. I won't even talk about Christi and Addi because you know, but my parent, friends, and a lot of people just showing they care. This has carried me a long way and has given me many positive days. However, I knew there would come a time when I would have some bad days. What surprised me most was the same support really came through again. Candace called me and yelled at me, Caroline wrote me a long email as well as Jeanne, and Christi stood by me like she always does.

I am sick still, and I do not feel very good today, but I am feeling better mentally than yesterday.

I think that the pressure of dealing with this has gotten to me. I also think it is affecting my job as well, which is very important to me. Bill, Jo, Brian, and everyone at FIG is really stepping up, but it bothers me. I just want to go back to a normal life, and that is just not possible anymore no matter what I do.

Just wanted to make sure I explained a little more. I am still fighting, and will not give this up ever because of Christi and Addi. I am sure there are better days ahead....