Hello to All - I hope this hot summer it treating you well. It isn't doing much for my bragging rights about being cooler than Kansas. I always give my family a hard time why NC is where I call home now. The mountains, the ocean, the cooler weather...well 2 out of 3 isn't bad. I new one to add to the list is Addi's cute accent. She is so country and so her father. Some things I just cannot make up. Addi could sell ice to Eskimos. Hence why she is so rotten, she convinces me to do some of the craziest things. Just like her Daddy...today in Target $100 less she reminds me, "Well I am my father's daughter." Seriously is she four! I guess I have mumbled that one too many times under my breath.
Addi and I have been enjoying July. I have been at work too much and I think the change is stressing Addi out a little, so we spend the weekends here and we are getting into trouble and crashing friends houses when the house is too quite. It is amazing that we are 8 months out and I still find myself crying once a day. (Well maybe not once a day, but on days like today, it feels like once a day) Most of the time remembering something funny, but other times, just memories everywhere. Good things and I wouldn't change them for the world, but crazy memories.
A year ago today we were surprising my Mom and Dad with their anniversary and Great Papa was another year older. Oh life is precious and I am so blessed with my little girl and family and friends, but life is fleeting. We are already talking about shopping for school supplies, Addi will have one more year of pre-school and then kindergarten. I think I will be excited and proud of her if it hadn't been such a milestone Bo wanted to live to. With that I know he will be there next year with us, but will make the day a greater accomplishment for Addi, but leave a larger hole for us.
Now that you all think I am absolutely nuts tonight, I promise you we are good. Just having a night. And I wrote once that on those nights I would turn to those out there to vent to. Better an unknown voice than someone of the phone thinking that they need to run me to a psych ward. I hope everyone is well and we will see you all soon.
Love to All
Christi and Addi

Hello to All - I have come to realize that I am camera dependant on other people. I have to much to wrap my mind around and get places for the life of me to remember a camera. So for anyone that took pictures last night, I would love a link to see!
With that being said, Addi and I had a good 4th of July. We didn't really have any plans and some friends called us in the morning to go boating, so boating did. Addi like to float on her back (life jacket on) and declare this is the life. I think the trend is spreading amongst her friends. From there we went to another friends house for a cook out and to watch the fireworks. Thanks Grahams, also for the sleepover last night. As Addi and I were laying on the back of the boat waiting for darkness to come we saw the first star come out. We typically wish on that one, but last night when I asked Addi what she was wishing for she simply told me that "her heart was telling her that was her Daddy." Gosh I hope so...
Needless to say Addi was so exhausted she didn't make it through the fireworks and she fell asleep (holding my beer - in my defense I was covering her ears because the "booms" were so loud.) So for those of you that took pictures, it was completely innocent.
We then slept over at the Grahams and got donuts, hit the pool today and started digging the house out of our mess that somehow I create over and over again. One of these days I will get a grasp on everything. Right now I am just enjoying time with Addi and figure little by little the rest will get done. Right?
I hope everyone had a safe 4th!
Love to All
Christi and Addi
PS - Hard to believe 7 months have come and gone...I realize that when you lose someone so significant in your life that the hole aches the same. Life happens to help you through, but the ache is always there.

Hello to All! Sorry for the long delay and posting, but Addi and I have been on the move this month. After celebrating with Mr. and Mrs. Clint Morgan in Colorado, Addi and traveled to Kansas where I left her and was able to attend FIG's company trip to Banff. If felt like home to see so many of the agents that have helped support Bo and I through out journey and not just sickness, but also our dating, marriage and having Addi. So many of the agents we consider dear friends that we have desperately missed seeing and catching up with. I have had to much time to reflect on things and truly be appreciative on relationships, that I am greatly for being able to tell those that we love that we love them and meet new friends. I had an incredible time (although Addi was in Kansas with my family, I am not quite sure she missed me, but that is a good thing) One thing that is so true with FIG is the core of the company is the same from the home office to the agents, everyone wants to do what is right for each other. It is an amazing group of people to be part of. Being by Bo's side with the company had made an extremely deep impact upon me, not just caring about the people, but also knowing how much Bo loved everyone and how he loved his job. Never did he think he worked a day in his life. It was another time to miss him more, but also celebrate him and the legacy he leaves behind. I am so grateful for those that shared stories of him and also how he affected their lives. When someone passes you fear that they will be forgotten, because to you they are in every breath you take. So anyone still out there know that Addi and I love the stories, the laughter and even a few tears.
With that being said Addi on a side note told me she is afraid she is going to forget her Daddy. Oh how I wish she knew that I will never let that happen. But also, how in the world is a 4 year old already worried about that. I truly believe she is so wise beyond her years, an old soul. I guess that is why Bo and I surrounded ourselves with a village of people to never let her forget.
Back on track, Addi and then spent a little time with my family. Never enough time in Kansas. Rarely do I get to go back and just hang out, but we did for a couple days and it was bliss to see her run around on a farm never hesitating with the dirt, animals or people. Kansas is something in her heart and for that I am grateful.
From Kansas we flew to Atlanta...(I told you we were traveling) Addi was a flower girl again for "Cousin Merritt" as we call her. Merritt was an incredible bride and I am so excited for her and the adventure of marriage. She found a good one in Patrick. I don't know him well ,but he can get that many grown me to give a speech and pronounce their love for him, he must have done something right. This time Addi freaked a little more coming down the aisle, something liked she walked halfway and when she saw me, she ran into my arms. I loved it, it got a chuckle from the crowd, and it was making good teasing for later...hehe.
From there we headed home on Father's Day. Oh Father's Day...I think this one was certainly a heavy heart. Addi insisted on buying Bo a card to mail to heaven. She is so thoughtful, after traveling home with Aunt Tracia, Addi and I spent the day together. We came home, I paid bills in Bo's honor (the guy loved to do that, the only person I know that like to give money out) We then went to the pool had dinner and just hung out. It was good to be home. We have a stone angel for our yard that we got for Father's Day. I am in hopes this will be a special spot and something Addi can always have where ever she goes to talk with her Daddy. Addi totally got it, "she hopes that when she talks to that angel she will find her Daddy and it will be like talking to Daddy." Wise, so wise.
Well now we are home, we missed celebrating a dear friend, "Dan Rourke", life. He was a mentor to Bo that if you remember took me under his wing that passed January for a company meeting. Him and I spent a good deal of time talking and laughing. Dan was an incredible man that lead an incredible life with incredible family and friends. I hate that I couldn't be there, but I think the best thing for Addi and myself was to take a weekend at home. We are tired and want to just hang today.
I will write more often, because this one was WAY to long...sorry for that. And Sorry for the typos, to tired to proof read, I guess I should have done that first!
Love to all
Christi and Addi

Hello to All - I hope everyone is enjoying their start of summer. We still have one more week of school for the little kids in NC, then summer fun. I got to spend last weekend with my family celebrating my little brother getting married. I guess little should probably switch to younger, he is like 6'2" and 28, but whatever it is all relative. He is grown and so handsome it is hard to believe. I still find it hard he lives in Colorado and can rent a car, but now well he is now married to an amazing wife, Brittany. We had the best time and it helped to pass the 6 month mark of missing Bo. Oh how we miss him. It is amazing how your heart still hurts...but it more bearable when those "big" dates have something wonderful to celebrate. A heartfelt thanks to the Turco's for thinking of me on one of the most important days of their families lives. I cannot express how thoughtful you were to include Bo in people to be remembered on their special day. The prayers and love help. It doesn't hurt to watch two people embark on one of the greatest days of their lives. You can't help to think about your own wedding day. I love my Bo, but "Bless his heart," he had a rough day thanks to going out after the rehearsal dinner. But I guess Eric had it a little worse, in your honor Eric I somehow gave myself a black eye. (Picking up a crayon off the floor and hitting my eye on the chair.
Clint and Brittany congrats and thank you again for helping me get through the day with celebrating a wonderful day with you all and your family
Love to All
Christi and Addi

Hello to All -
I have a feeling this year will be a year of many firsts where I find myself looking back and realizing what we went through 4 years ago. Memorial Day weekend has also been the anniversary for everything. Bo had a biopsy done the Friday before the weekend (I should apologize to everyone that came to our party and was wondering what in the world was the matter with us.) Then we found out he had cancer on a Tuesday, on June 1st. It was then confirmed by Duke on June 6th, mind you it was 6-6-06 (Another day the world was suppose to end. For us it was the worst day of our lives so we decided it could only get better from there). Well today is also the day he received his second call (the It's a Go!) for his lung transplant. I have tried to forget about the first transplant because, well we all know how well that went. So then again on June 1st he was transplanted a second time and my Bo came back to me. I will always carry with me that he loved Addi and I so much he truly came back alive to be with us. Granted our time together afterwards was shorter than we wanted, I am grateful for it. We spent 5 months in the hospital together everyday grateful. Like a dummy I put today on my calendar, like I would ever forget...Crazy what life can throw at you in 4 years.
Thank you for everything to all our family and friends I hope your day is wonderful.
Love to All
Christi and Addi

Hello to All - Sorry for the delay in the post, lately Addi and I have been loving the outdoors as much as possible. I feel sorry for our street we live on. Addi is determined to ride her bike, but she insists I go with her. Well as she gets better and better the faster she goes, Mommy can no longer walk, now I am running chasing her. She is yelling run faster Mommy and I am yelling stop yelling...you now have the visual.
Addi and I made it through and had a great Mother Daughter Mother's Day. A friend Leslie gave us the idea of planting together on Mother's Day. So we attempted to plant a garden, I use the word garden loosely. I let Addi pick the plants out, jalapenos, cilantro, tomatoes, cucumbers, and a few others. She was so excited Sunday morning that it was Mother's Day to give me my presents she made with the help of Jessica, a camp, and a card picked out. You would have thought it was Christmas, how could one be sad. There was a moment when she realized there is probably a Daddy's day, but I assured her we would do something special for Daddy.
Speaking of Daddy, a quick store to take how you want, but the other day Addi woke up (after sleeping in an extra hour) This typically make for an extra energy day, but Addi calmly walked into the room curled up on my lap and quietly said, "Daddy woke me up. He said Sweetie, its time to wake up." She seemed at peace, so either dreaming and reality, it gave her peace and I am grateful for those moments.
I also have big news, the book written by a friend Kim Reynold's, The Evening Oak, is available for pre-order now. Use this link and get yours today, the more ordered the sooner the better...Congrats to Kim
http://amzn.to/AlexCharles01
This is a great read for adults and young adults, so for any of you teachers out there let your students know!
Love to All
Christi and Addi

Hello to All -
Nature verses Nurture...clearly it is a little of both. For those of you that know the story of Grandson's Day, well Addi just pulled a "Kids Day" on me. Long story short, Bo (as a kid) convinced his grandmother Rosemary that it was Grandson's day and she took him to the mall and bought him a present and everything. Well, yesterday I was trying to explain to Addi Mother's Day and she has it all planned out for me. (Don't anyone worry, she has it under control) Something about Taco Bell (which we never eat at) and doing something at the house. Anyway, then our conversation continues as such,
"Mom, what day is today."
"Monday, honey, why? (This is normally when we talk about when she can sleep in my bed)
"Mom, I think Monday's should be kids day. I will go to my room you go get me something special and then I will come down and be surprised.'
"Addi, I think everyday is kids day."
"No, we need something special for me." Long pause for me...
"Well, what will tomorrow be?" I tried to divert...
"Tuesday, The Buddies Day."
Needless to say, I did not fall for that one. But she did have Jessica convince we loved Taco Bell...poor Jessica
Love to All
Christi and Addi

Hello to All -
Well Mother's Day came a weekend early for me. Addi and I had the best Mom and Daughter day today, we are both exhausted (Addi even at one time asked me to go home to take a nap, now that is unheard of for her!)
We were lazy this morning crawled in bed and watched cartoons, nothing like a little Max and Ruby to get the morning going. Then it was off to Davidson Day. The town of Davidson, on a smaller scale, reminds me so much of Lawrence. Small community supporting their college. We spent all morning and early afternoon riding rides, finding friends, crashing lunches (Thanks Shawn and Kristen) and getting our face painted. It is amazing that sometimes when you feel so far from home, you realize you really do have roots where you are. So many people love and care for Addi, it makes my heart swell. She loves everyone of her friends and very much like her Daddy runs up to everyone with open arms, never a stranger (Sorry Henry!)
Then off to get some necessary shopping (and a few things not on the list - PS this is where Addi got tired)
Now we are working on some projects, watching Tinkerbell and just snuggling. Gotta love a weekend with no real commitments!
Love to All
Christi
PS - Happy 30th to my little and ugh younger sister. Yes that makes me older than 30...I might be in denial...age in all relative, right?

Hello to All -
Well 6 years ago today I married my prince, literally if you asked my Grandma. She figured I was destined when I told her I was living on Princeton Ave. She was always a wise woman. Well no snow today, but tornadoes are heading our way. Mind you I live in NC now, not Kansas. My how things have changed...A lot of people put the incredible expectation on their wedding day. Don't get me wrong, there is nothing more important than standing before God and promising to love someone forever, no matter what come your way. I am truly blessed to have been loved and to love someone up until then. So many people are not as lucky. I have also come to realize that like the movies (Ghost) for example Patrick Swazey says you get to take your love with you, well I don't know about that part, but here on earth you get to keep loving and I believe you are forever loved.
Back to the wedding day thing, for Bo and I, well, other than the "Standing before God"part it really was a formality. Bo knew before I did, God help me he was so impulsive, but it worked for him. He knew for early on we would be together forever. He was my decisiveness, I was his flexibility. He was my voice, I was he sounding board. He was my "spoil me rotten", I was our "we need to save a little more". He was simply, "My Great Love." He was so crazy, we met in late October and by Thanksgiving he was telling me we were getting married. If anyone knows me, knows I didn't even call my boyfriend for 2 years, he was forever the "Interviewer". How lucky were we....the best part, Addi.
I explained to her this morning why Mommy was a little sad and she quickly told me she had a present for me. She went to the alarm clock/CD player and played "Our Song" "Someone Like You", by Van Morrison. In 9 years that CD has sat in there and woke us up, I figure why change it. We danced to it at our wedding. After playing it, she looked at me with big eyes and asked, "Did that make you feel better," Of course it did. Loving her, Loving him and remember who loves us, helps us everyday.
I hope everyone gets to experience eternal love. Addi and I hope to love again, but we know already no one can love as much as Bo did. Thanks for always being my sounding/reading board.
All our love,
Christi and Addi
PS - A little shout out to ET for enduring a black eye from Bo the night before our wedding. Needless to say, things got a little out of hand after the rehearsal dinner!

Just a quick side post for anyone interested in donating to this wonderful cause...They have been a huge support for myself and Addi during our transition of living life remembering Daddy. It is a safe place for her to feel "accepted and normal". Other kids here are missing their Daddy or Mommy also...
The Kindermourn 2010 Duck Race takes place this Sunday, April 18 2-5 at the National Whitewater Center. On top of supporting a wonderful cause, you will have an opportunity to win a multitude of prizes including $5,000 in cash! If you can attend there is no admission charge. There is a zip line for adults and big kids along with jump houses, face painting, music and entertainment for children. There event culminates with thousands upon thousands of ducks coming down the channel "racing" to the finish line which is always every one's favorite part.
Please support this terrific organization https://www.duckrace.com/Teams/tabid.1477/Default.aspx
Look for Addi's Cure
Love
Christi and Addi

Hello to All - I wonder if the 5th will ever come and go and not take my breath away. With that being said, still missing you babe...everyday a little more. Funny how it is so much like loving someone, a little more everyday.
Easter was quiet. Surprisingly a hard holiday. Hard to Explain, joyous to All, but Hard. Saturday we had brunch with Grams and Papa and hunted for eggs at the Yacht Club. Addi snuck her way into some friends family photos, poor Grace was drug all over the place "posing" with Addi. Then Sunday we woke up to a bunny filled basket, church, Dunkin Donuts (Iced Carmel Latte for me!) and then Easter Egg hunting...which is by far Addi's third favorite thing to do aside from Christmas and her Birthday. We re-hid them over and over again. Thank you to the Beasley's for helping us take some pictures!
Addi and I took the day and night on by storm on the 5th. We are on spring break this week and I have some amazing friends helping me take care of Addi, while I work on getting up to speed a work. (My incredible co-worker Elizabeth is expecting May 11th...so the office I will come. I can't wait to hold her little girl)
Did I mention that we are in a heat wave of 90 degrees (I am not complaining), but in a dusting of pollen. And for those of you in the Midwest, I am not kidding when I say a dusting...it is like a light snow, almost gritty in your teeth. Ugh, but I guess things could always be worse, right.
Addi/Tonya is keeping me forever entertained. Last night to the amusement of my neighbors, Addi has been working on riding her bike and well that leaves me chasing her down the road. She is getting better and better, loves to go fast and laughs her head off when I have to run to catch up. I foresee a new workout routine for us...I will post a video soon of her and her riding escapades. I am greatly looking forward to the "big" crash that will eventually occur, God help us all.
Love to All
Christi and Addi
PS - Tonya would like the world to know that she is from China and they do not have Rack Rooms Shoe stores there...one store with just shoes...amazing (Where she comes up with these things, I will never know)
PSS - Congrats to Brett and Lindsey...they are expecting and the due date is October 13...Addi's B-day, but Lindsey is hoping for 10.10.10...pretty cool (easy for Bret to remember!) He is a LSU fan and needs all the help he can get! Haha

Alright - Everyone needs to see a little bit of Tonya (possessed in this video)...but this is Tonya a little crazy, but in her defense she isn't normally this crazy...I love her and her laugh...
Love to All
Christi and Addi

Hello to All! Yes, I have been quietly crying my tears about the Jayhawks, but I guess that is the nature of the beast, right? Addi and I enjoyed a week back in Kansas with the family. We had a great time, planned to much and wish we could of just sat around some more and rested, but I think that is why we come home right. Her and Cousin Ryan are truly two peas in a pod. They fell in love and out of love with each other over and over again, but at night never went to bed angry...the drama those girls will have. Also sorry to those I didn't meet up with, time just flew by...
Now we are back in NC celebrating another new Cousin, Morgan Mullan. She arrived last night and we already raced to the hospital to meet her and Addi was just in awe. Oh the things Addi wants to teach her. Congrats Caroline and Mike. I cannot help but think what mixed emotions Bo would have...he would (and always was) so proud of your both, but would have a hard time believing his little sister has a baby now.
For those of you also wondering, yes Tonya went to Kansas with us, she was invisible most of the time. When my family wasn't asking teasing her to come out. She did come right back as soon as we walked into the school doors. Tonya is from China, she didn't see the great wall, her mama never took her and she is very sad about this. Addi/Tonya is now obsessed with shrinking...she thinks she is getting smaller and Mommy is a giant. You really have to love and appreciate this age...
Love to All
Christi and Addi
oh yeah, new favorite word, booty followed up by bootilicous - I tried to tell her Beyonce beat her too that word...

Hello to All - Thank you for all the kinds emails and posts that Addi might just be creative and not odd...with that being said. If you could only have been a fly on the wall at McDonalds the other morning. She was trying to explain to a friend she just met why she was Tonya and that we left Addi at home in bed resting. He was very concerned that she was sick and her mommy was at McDonalds leaving her home alone. I am only waiting on the call from children's services...
I am finalizing the numbers for Addi's Cure, "Beating the Odds," I hope to get that total by the end of the day. Also if anyone is in the Hendersonville area May 1st - 2nd at Crooked Creek a golf tournament for Addi's Cure. Calcutta and steak dinner Saturday night at the Hendersonville Elks Lodge. Please contact Lee Bradley - 828-290-3354.
Also a reminder those of you that shop online, please link up to IGive.com and choose Addi's Cure or any non-profit, so many stores give a percentage back. It is an easy way to raise money.
http://iGive.com/html/refer.cfm?causeid=38872&utm_source=membercheckletter&utm_medium=email

Love to All
Christi and Addi/Tonya

Alright, when do you worry? Just kidding...Addi has entered her imaginative stage (I think we have been there for a while, but she is getting more creative) She is now officially Tonya....I know, who is Tonya, why Tonya, and are you serious. Please do not refer to her as Addi because either a.) she will just flat out ignore you (Jessica our sitter had this happen to her) or b) she will correct you with the proper eye roll. (My name is Tonyaaaaaa)
The story goes as such, Addi is sick for 3 days, sleeping in her bed. All by herself and we are so proud of her. Tonya is now playing with Mommy. Tonya's family didn't want her anymore, so now she is with us. They were friends before, got split up, and now are friends again. Sisters actually...and the story keeps going on and on...Only I have the child that becomes the imaginary friend instead of just having one...
Love to All
Christi and Tonya

Hello to All - I can hardly believe yesterday had been 3 months without Bo. Oh how are hearts miss him. Even the stuff that drove us crazy. Lately there seems to be more reminders of him everywhere. Our Addi's Cure event, I went to get my life insurance license, and Addi has been missing him a little more lately. She is sweet, I just hope that I do not screw her up too much. Thanks girls for helping me get through my Friday night and 3 months without Bo.
With that being said, Addi and I (with Pam) had an adventure today watching our friend Kay ride her horse in an North Carolina Rodeo. I believe the proper term is "Roping". She was amazing and all her friends were so sweet to Addi. Addi definately has some of her Papa Cow in her, she loves animals. All she wanted to do was get in the saddle and go faster. She was sad that she wasn't competing...god help me I might need someone to buy her a horse! She loved everything about it, from getting dirty in the dirt, to riding, eating nachos and chasing cowboys to tickle them (that will stop at age 6, don't you worry) Thank you again Kay for inviting us, we had a great time.
Off to bed
Love to All
Christi and Addi

Hello to All! Sorry for the delay in posting...We had another fabulous Addi's Cure event, Beating the Odds with a wonderful turn out. I am always how fun to can be to play Vegas style without really losing the money. We at least I think it is fun. One of these days I will tune my skills to venture to Vegas on my own and truly gamble. With that being said, I am still working on the totals, but hope to post soon. Thank you again for everyone that turned out and for loving Addi. She had a wonderful time running around and even trying to play some games, we at least roulette and craps. I think I am still recovering from the good time, or it could be that I am just lacking because I am sitting to get another license for work. Thank God Kay is putting up with me and all the talking I do a break and in the car. I do realize for some reason I am talking an ungodly amount. Sorry!
I did have to say Addi and I received the greatest present in the mail! Thank you to my wonderful friends in Kansas. I haven't been able to go home for a while, but they still remember me. We got some things and now I have to run to the grocery store so Addi and I can cook in "her" Cookbook. Thank you for being so thoughtful. Hopefully when Addi and I go to Kansas we can meet up with some of you, if not all. I am not quite sure some of the smaller ones are ready to Addi. She is a force of energy.
Well that is all for now. Wish me (and Kay) good luck on our test! We (I) might need it!
Love to All
Christi and Addi

Hello to All! I hope everyone is doing well. First I want to say we are so excited for this weekends, Beating the Odds event. Unfortunately we have not sold as many tickets as we would liked to by now, but hopefully everyone knows they can get them at the door. This will probably be our last year doing this event, so I hope we can get a great turnout to celebrate Bo's life and legacy of Addi's Cure. The dress is casual and the dealers are wonderful, so please come on out!
Now that that is taken care of, a couple of funny Addi stories...
I caught Addi very interested in her nose the other day,
"Addi what is the matter with your nose. (Other than you finger up it)."
"Mommy I have Itchy-nose-itis"
Huh? And another...
"Mommy, I have a song in my head and the only way to get it out is to turn on Wow, Wow, Wubzy." Selling like her Daddy all the time, (and not buying it either...like her Daddy)
Addi's favorite dance right now is "Shake you Booty" with the dancing with it...lovely
Sometimes you can't make these things up...
Love to All
Christi and The Comedian Addison (She changed her name, because her Mother (huh) calls her that (Just when she is in trouble or I need to get her attention)

Hello to All - So I might have started something with Addi and the snow. If you remember it snowed right around Christmas and Addi and I decided that Daddy "wanted Addi and I to have a white (great) Christmas". Well guess what it snowed again right on time for Bo's Birthday. So again Addi felt like Daddy was right there with her. Remember I live in North Carolina where the weather is suppose to be nice and maybe snow once at 32 degrees, guess what SNOW for Valentines! Sorry everyone in NC if Bo has anything to do with this years winter. Addi loves it, snow ball fights are her favorite! So we survived Valentines together with a little snow.

We did have a Great Uncle on Bo's side pass away, Uncle Jim. The Johnson family is always in our prayers. His wife Lib has always reminded me of my incredible Grandma. Not just because the are both incredible, sweet, but when they hold your hands there is always a little squeeze. I can only hope to give that feeling off when I am older.

Enjoy the pictures and love to All

Christi and Addi

PS - If is snows on our Anniversary in April, I will have a serious talk with someone...

I thought you all would enjoy the laugh I did today. After I asked, "What in the world..." Addi's response, "I got spots." Really...

The observant people might notice two different outfits, yes she did it twice...